I know... It's been quite a long time since I've posted, I only really got up to my 2nd day of my Cali trip in June and had way too much fun and didnt get the time to post things as I said I would. Not to worry, those photo's and videos have been uploaded on my laptop and I will post them, just so you can see how much fun I had in California... Be patient and stay tuned for that!
I wanted to touch bases on the fact of self growth. I can say for myself that in the past year and a half, the young lady you see before you is a very different person from before. I've spread my wings and hopped out of the world that I had created for myself, not knowing if I would ever be able to handle the different situations, obstacles and just " The Real World" that awaits me. The " Comfortable World" I once was in for a consectutive 9 years allowed me to lose touch with not just everything, but myself. For those who have buckled down into a counterpart, significant other, boyfriend/girlfriend, your "Boo" or whatever cheesey pet name you want to call one another, you know exactly what I am talking about.
I allowed myself to be so disconnected to my surroundings: family, peers, friends, etc... that in the end, I crutched myself to whatever felt " comfortable". I made the mistake of allowing this to happen fully knowing that if this foundation that I stood on were to ever fall apart, I would be at the bottom, on my own and thats exaclty what happened. I was fortunate enough to have a wonderful support system that helped guide me to see that, because I've been outta the loop for almost a decade, the real world is accepting, with limits. It's there, but I'd have to put myself out there and be open to know that even though the world is accepting, that I'm going to experience the good, the bad and the in between. I've met many people from different walks of life and made many life long friends. The diversity of the world allowed me to see that, "hey... its not too bad. "
Now, this journey hasn't just been mary-gold sunshine, this trek that I lead myself on has been quite the roller coaster ride. I've made a lot of stupid decision, put myself in really stupid situations and have had a lot of personal event happen. I've made friends, lost some, unliked by some and probably hated by many. It's an adventure.. Lifes an adventure! Even with obstacles and the "bad things" that may occur, you always have to take yourself out of the box and look at what good you can take from the situation, and move foward. As much as it would suck, say for example, you break up with your gf/bf because they were being douche bags and decided to not faithful, you know you can take the qualities of what you want and now know what you dont want in a partner and apply it to the screening process for your next potential partner.* A.D.D SIDETRACK FACTOID*There is hope... apparently statistics have proven you are suppose to encounter 79 ppl ( which includes dates, buddies with benefits and relationships) before you meet " THE ONE" - yeah, I know but I read the article on it!
For oneself, these situation that occur will always take place, it's really what you do with it. You can let these things roll off your shoulders and move on as if nothing ever happened, but on the real... thats not a way to live your life. Everyone should embrace the fact that in life... shit happens, whether it's good, bad, unsignificant or extremely important... things happen and its those moments that allows you, as an individual to soak it and apply it to yourself.
For the many many many many many stupid things that I've ever done in my 25 years of life, I've never once said, " I totally regret doing that!" I would say, " I wish I dealt with it in a better manner." But I would never regret making mistakes. I wouldnt be able to know any better if I hadnt fallen flat on my face. The things we do in life will not always turn out the way we want, as humans are not perfect. No one is, and once you sit there and realize that, acknowledge yourself for who you are, accept you for you, including your flaws and really be able to love youself 100% and really mean it.. you my friend are one of a kind that is still out there to grow and better yourself in this amusement park that we call " The Real World".
I don`t really know the main purpose of this entry was for, I guess in a sense, it was a way for me to express my self reflection that I've been doing that I've been doing for the past little bit. So many events have happened, and I can clearly say that I'm in a better place than a year and a half ago. I'm still in that process to lean more about myself, I have dreams and plans to accomplish, I've made some stupid-ass decisions, accepted it, taken responsibility and walked away from every situation a better person.
haa!! I know... this entry is one of those mind vomit kinda things, but I hope in some way or another... you can feel me on it.
